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Sigh…. Got my second assignment for microeconomics. I failed it. And the marks from the previous assignment is not enough to even it out…

Right after, I went up the fifth floor and looked down the edge. It was really high. Would’ve definitely died on the spot if i fell head first. I gazed into the unknown in my mind, and the next thing i knew, I blacked out on the stairs. Darkness overcame me, and I journeyed into the very centre of my soul and conscience.

There was a light in the distance. Didn’t see anyone within the light but i heard a voice. He said “If you jump, I won’t take your spirit. You will not be welcomed into my house.”
I said “Lord, why not? Didn’t I live a life that glorified your name? It was a weird one, i know, but didn’t it all end up exalting your name?”
He said “And you can do more. This is just one part of your life. The tip of the iceberg. Live, and I will do great wonders in you.”
“Lord is this the path You want me to take?”
“Do you want to take this path?”
“No, but then again there’s always this pull in my heart to keep trying.”
“If it’s not your will than whose is it? From this path you will possess skills that I can use for your desire and my will.”

The light lessened and I open my eyes. I got up and cried. God, why do you want me to go through this? I hate the corporate world and all it’s lies. I just want to be where You are, in your presence, where I am strong and can do anything you ask me to. Then there was that same voice “In your weakness, I will prevail, and they shall all know that it is not by your own strength, but Mine. You will be My living testimony. So live, and I will be with you always.”

Suddenly I felt so calm, at peace. Knowing that if not now, it’ll be later that God will prevail in my life. Why should I jump just because of one failure, when previously i have done many? I just need to be patient and do my best. I looked back down the edge and thought “God will take me when it’s time. Who am I to play God?”

Sigh…. pray for me… all those who love me, please pray for me…. It’s hard, it’s tough. I just want to quit because it involves the one muscle i don’t use so much… my brain. It’s not in-line with my heart.

Think this is a story? Think again. God’s as real as that.

If you think drill is just about marching up and down a place, well you’re half right… but it’s just half of it. Been watching video after video on YouTube recently, and all I can say is… I WANNA DO EM ALL!!! Formation, color guard, trooping, memorial, wedding…

Anyways, here’re some videos of some drill… Now don’t look at it negatively… these are actually rather fun

Let’s start with a joke:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=25Qhbdijv5Y

And here’s HARDCORE:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHfANQcN8_0

Oh…a few things you gotta know.

1. Posting on both Xanga and Friendster…. Same same stuff… but i thought i’d make my blogs more open to others who are just so lifeless they end up reading MY blog… Oh, don’t worry, i know how you fee and i love you guys too!

2. About my position in the army, i got promoted before i went on study resignation, so guess the rank.

3. I haven’t been writing any sentimental pieces or scripture pieces recently, simply because i have too much to say, to the point i dont even know what to say.

Have you guys had that? A time when you have so much to think and say that you dont know what to say anymore? I’m almost emotionally drain because of all these questions in my head, plus university isnt helping either. For me, it’s more about my personal conviction and reassurance of faith.

It’s kinda big thing, but the thing is, only time can answer them. Would like to talk about them, if anyone has the time to hear lah… but frankly i dont even have time for myself to think thoroughly, which makes things more frustrating.

Sigh… pray for me. I admit that i’m not worthy to be at the top of anyone’s prayer list, but i need help. i need friends to intercess for me… i’m just lost, at crossroads, and in doubt of things.

Interesting eh? Here’s mark tan, normally full of pompus and such a pain in the ass he should know what he’s doing all the way eh? Well, put it this way, every man will face his Waterloo.

God bless.

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