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Haih… U noe? Valentine’s shudn get me, becos i’m not hooked to anyone, nor am i mentally plannin to do so.

"It’s wrong for me to be in a relationship now. I mean, i’m goin off to Aus in 2009 (that’s rite ppl, not this yr, nor next yr), i got too much at my plate now. i dun think i have much time left for her. Plus she seems to be really busy with other matters. Will she have time for me, or try to have time for me as i try to make for her? Let’s not burden her with such details"
-Mark’s small brain thinkin (if any)-

But not so far south:

"I should put some things aside to give her more of my time. I should make more an effort to ensure every spare moment i got can be given to her. It may not last long, but let it last as long as it can. Doesnt matter how much she gives, as long as u try."
-Mark’s heart (like i said, NOT SO FAR SOUTH!)-

But what does God say about this?

4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; 6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part. 10 But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away.
11 When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things. 12 For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.
13 And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love. -1 Corinthians 13:4-13-

Verse 4-7:
In short love does not move for itself, but for others. As i have said before love is an action, not just a feeling, love should not do things for him/her own benefit. More rather the opposite. It does things for others without thinkin of profiting for itself. it hopes for the best, but it puts others the top priority in the best. cos it’s contented when others are well, though u are not.

Verse 8-10:
Without love, nothing works. U can prophecy, but without love, it’ll just pass-by. U can have the gift of tongues at first, but without love, it will vanish. U can know things, but without love, it will wither away. U can receive a calling, but without love, it will jus be a passing activity that wont last. All things must have love embedded into it in order for it to go through the test of time. Otherwise, it wont take effect, it wont stand, it jus simply wont last.

Verse 11-12:
Our perspective of love will change to meet ur age, experience, and understanding. When u were younger, u thought when ur parents just give u things, they love u. But when u get older, u understand that even when they scold u, they scold u becos they love u. Like so, one time we look at lovin our partner as giving her everything u got, even if she doesn want it. U care for him/her only to enusre that he/she wud care for u back, even if she really doesn want to.

verse 13:
In everything, have love.

So what does this mean to me?
If i truly love her, i’d have her have me in anyway that she likes, eventhough it doesn mean together. If she needs a friend, i’ll be the best friend she can ever think of. i will go through all levels of hell jus to help her in anything that she asks for. If i know that goin into a relationship with her wont help, then i wont till she’s ready. I’ll let her concerntrate wif watever she needs to do first. and if in de end she sees sum1 else… i will bless it fully. Of course i’ll be F%*#ing pissed, but that’s besides de point. but hei, she’s happy. That’s all i want. That’s all i should want. Painful eh? That’s love for ya peeps.

So…how much do you LOVE HIM/HER? And is GOD in the picture?

Jesus Wept - John 11:35

It’s the shortest verse in the entire Bible, yet it brings forth so much meaning. It’s been going through my head again and again and again. The question is, why did Jesus weep?

Why did he weep when he was going to raise him from the dead? Why did he show that sense of weakness at that time, though able to stand tall n face the cross on Calvary?

JESUS WEPT

So simple, so straightforward… but so deep, so meaningful. This verse symbolizes so many things.

That he loves us

That he would shed a tear when we fall

That he would cry when we die in spirit

That he was also human on earth

That he was human when he made the sacrifice

That he did it all with God’s strength n not his own

That though he is king of kings, he’s personal with each and everyone of us

That our God is someone with feelings

That although He is above all power, He loves us personally… each and everyone of us

You know, no other god in this world has a record that they actually wept when they see their people in trouble. Now, I further cannot understand why idol worshippers worship something that even though is so powerful, has no feelings for their own people. I mean sure, they say they save the world, but they make it as if their duty bounded to. No feelings, it’s all part of the job. This Jesus who we worship today, with these feelings means dat he can feel like not wanting to save us.

He can actually be scared, turn down the duty, and live happily till he’s 120yrs old. Instead, he felt for us sadness that in death we will suffer. JESUS WEPT not because he will be heading to suffer at the cross, but because he saw the suffering we will go through via God’s Judgment and lost in the darkness when we die. He knows it. He sits at the right side of the Father when He gives those judgments, therefore he has been seeing this for over 2000 years.

For all that, Jesus wept.

That, and thousands more… just two simple words, shapes the very foundation of what we believe in. But the most important is…

He loves so much, that instead of just doing something temporary for us (raising from the dead), he went one step further. Instead of claiming back our sacrifices from death, he gave the ultimate sacrifice to death, so that we never have to do it for ourselves ever again.

Jesus wept…

What does this mean for us?

That we have no reason not to love Him back

That we have no reason not to do great things for Him

That we ought to feel for each other as He does for us

That we should cry as well when our beloved brethren fall

That we should cry tears of joy when he comes back

Jesus wept

Thousand things to say from these two simple words… but it leaves without breath and speechless.