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Just an update of me guys. Nuthin much been goin on.

College, taking my subjects well. Will need to do better if I am to get an 80% average, but wil get there eventually.

Boys’ Brigade has been tiring, Enrolment and Awards Day v=coming on Sept. 3rd. So, if anybody’s free, lemme noe if you would like to come.

Personally: Tired, sometimes lonely. Lonely not as in got no friends. I have some of the best friends anybody and everybody would ask for. In truth, I am looking for  someone to be mine. I can’t even believe I am even putting it in a blog, but yeah, I am lonely.

I want someone to tell my deepest feelings,and she would tell hers, and we would listen, help and support each other. We would have treasurable moments together, neither of us afraid what other people would think. When one of us is down, the other is there to pick up and support te other.

Some people think I have no interest in this sort of thing. That life for me is good. But, what’s a good life when you do not have anyone to shre it with?

I am a student, therefore incompetent of this matter. I’m too young to think of this, some people say. I dun even know myself, some people say. Well, I have heard myself, and have my own opinions about me. What I would like is  to have someone to look at me at another perspective/ angle, and vice versa. Though young I maybe, but far and long have i thought of this feeling.

I dunno. What do you think? Has anybody thought that I migt be interested in a relationship? What makes girls think on the spot that I am a good friend, but a bad bf? Am I too approachable, too talkative? Help me out here. I can’t see anymore problems of me, yet I have been having a streak of bad chances. So I need another person’s perspective. What are my glitches?

This article i think I will only put up for a while, but we’ll see.

This prayer is famous for all Christians. I pray it whenever i can remember it, which is quite often. Most things in my life i thank God for givin me serenity, other times i wonder whether God wants to teach me sumthin in this experience or He wants me to feel this first or He wants overcome it on my own before He stretches His (nail-pierce) hands of love to help me.

Things has been going on in my life until i am stretched thin and dry. Like butter spread over too much bread. Thin (not literally :P), tired. I would seem fine normally, but truthfully sumtimes, I wanna break onto my knees, cry up to the sky and say "Lord, take this burden away from me, i can bear it no longer." I would need sumthin which would content me to the end of my age (besides God of course). But unfortunately, it’s of "limited stock" right now, and one day it might (God forbid) run out when i still need it and i will jus go blank, cease to exist, a walking empty shell. Die of thirst.

So everynight, i pray, for hope strength, and power by His Holy name to live through another day, another week, another life till i am quenched of my other thirst. My drink will come one day. Well, I hope it’s soon. Cos I’m parched.

THE SERENITY PRAYER

God grant me the serenity,
To accept the things i cannot change,
The courage to change the things i can
and the wisdom to know the difference. (I’ll need a lot more of this)
Amen.

A man is in a forest. He is dying of thirst. Yet, no water can quench his thirst, becuse he is sick with a disease that came from a poison that very few can comprehened. He requires a drink that is based on that poison, but in a different form, only it heals instead of torture. And, he needs it in a constant abundance, meaning he needs it all the time. But, the problem is, the drink has been taken by another person, and it cannot be shared as both need it constantly. All the man can do now is stand around and watch him drink till he is contented, and when he leaves for a while, the man will sneak in and take a few sips to quench his thirst only for a while.

My friends, isn’t that torture? Especially since the man can only take a few sips only when the other fella doesn’t need it for the meantime? And when the other guy is there, all he can do is sit and watch? Would you survive it? I tell you truthfully, there’s a greater torture than this. And that is when THIS story is occuring to you, BUT it’s all in the MIND, and the HEART feels it ten-fold.

There’re lot of metaphores and ‘unknowns’ in this riddle. But if you replace the ‘unknowns’ witht the right constants, and play the metaphores properly, you will certainly know how I feel.

Very few people didn’t get my last riddle, so I hope this one helps. Both of them needs to be read together, one after another. So, good luck.

Its early in the morning
And my heart is really lonely
Just thinkin bout you baby
Got me twisted in the head
And I dont know how to take it
But its driving me so crazy
I dont know if its right
I’m tossin turning in my bed
Its 5 oclock in the morning
And I still cant sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
Weak…
I’m feeling hopeless in my home
I dont know what to do but I think I’m in love
Baby…

[Chorus]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

Now I know you’re not my lady I’m just tryin to make this right
I dont know what to do I’m going out of my mind
So baby if u let me could I getchu to say maybe we could ride together
We could do this all nite now I dont care if u got a man
Baby I wish you’d understand
Cuz I kno he cant love u right, quite like I can
Its 5 oclock in the morning
And I still cant sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
Weak…
I’m feeling hopeless at home
I dont kno what to do but I think I’m in love

[Chorus]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

I love the way u freaky like that
I love the way u freaky like that
I love the way u freaky like that
Its an obsession

[Baby Bash]
Hold up let me dream
Shorty got me feelin less supreme
Where my candy, where my cream
Got your boy feel less supreme
Hold up wait a minute baby you so damn independent
Loving everything your representing
Got alot of money, I love to spend it
And thats whats up and I dont care what people scream
You’re my blessin when I’m stressin
My superfly beauty queen
I’m gonna keep it saucy
Cuz my money know how I do, we go rendez-vous, mi corazon belongs to you

[Chorus]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong) what am I do wrong [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
What am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong?) what am I do so wrong? [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

Amor